Kelsea Ballerinimay have mined her personal life forinspiration for her latest album, but that doesn’t mean she’s airing any dirty laundry.
The country singer, 29, made headlines upon the release of her fourth recordSubject to Changelast week thanks to the track “Doin' My Best,” whoselyrics hint at a falling outwith pop starHalsey.
However, despite the pointed lines, Ballerini is insisting that the song shouldn’t be taken as a dig — instead, it’s simply her chronicling the ways in which friendships sometimes just don’t work out.
“I hope people interpret that line like it was meant to be, which is no shade at all, it’s just saying that one of the things I’ve had to navigate is naturally you want to become friends with other artists because no one’s gonna get your life like another artist does,” she told Amazon Music’sCountry Heat Weeklypodcast.
She continued: “And then sometimes that becomes really awkward and sometimes there’s competition involved and sometimes you try to like, do something together cause they’re your friend and you want to share art together and you introduce business into it and it just messes everything up. That was kind of what I was trying to say, so I hope it gets interpreted that way.”
On the line in question, Ballerini sings: “I was friends with a pop star/I put ‘em on track four but/Wish I could take it back, I would’ve never asked/If I knew we wouldn’t talk anymore.”
Halsey and Kelsea Ballerini.Kevin Mazur/Getty Images
It seems to be a thinly veiled reference to Halsey, 28, whocollaborated with Ballerinion “The Other Girl,” the fourth track on the country star’s third albumKelsea.
“Doin’ My Best” also includes lyrics that reflect upon Ballerini’s ill-fated marriage to country singer Morgan Evans, from whom shefiled for divorce in Augustafter nearly five years of marriage.
The song’s deeply personal content almost meant it was left off the album.
“‘Doin’ My Best' was one that I almost didn’t… I really had to have a hard conversation with myself to put it on,” Ballerini told the podcast.
Kelsea Ballerini.Dimitrios Kambouris/Getty
The “Heartfirst” singer explained that she’d already cut 10 songs for the record, but many of them featured lyrics not necessarily true to her life, and more like “playing a character.”
“I was like, ‘Man, I think I’m doing myself a real disservice to not go further into what the book opened up for me,” she said, referring to her 2021 poetry bookFeel Your Way Through. “It unlocked this depth artistically that I hadn’t gone to yet.”
“I just took ownership of it and I sent it back and that became the song,” she said. “It’s just jarringly honest, but it’s truly exactly where I’m at right now.”
source: people.com
